September 3, 2008
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“Men never do evil so completely and cheerfully as when they do it from a religious conviction.” –Blaise Pascal
So…I’ve been thinking about Heaven a lot lately…very lately, actually. Since April, to be exact. At first, I wanted to go just cuz life didn’t make sense anymore (not that it ever had before=), and because it simply wasn’t worth living for me anymore…I WANTED to die…seemed like a relief…course I don’t get suicidal…not very often anyway. I just kinda beg God to please take me now…to put me out of my misery…but he didn’t listen to me…oh. Yes he did. He always listens…he just doesn’t always obey. So I’ve come to the conclusion that if he wants me alive it must be for some reason, right? I must have a purpose…and I’m gonna find out what it is, and I’m gonna do it.
But anyway…back to Heaven (got a little sidetracked there=). It seems to get more and more attractive…the more I think of it. It’s gonna be amazingly beautiful…way and far beyond my wildest dreams…and the thought of actually being in the presense of GOD…wow…speech betrays me…but I’ve decided something. The BEST thing about Heaven…the very best thing that I can think of (for now), is that there will be no seperation. We will never, never have to say goodbye…only, “Welcome home.”
I love that. Don’t you?
Comments (23)
Wow….. thats awesome.. i hate goodbyes… knowing it maybe the last time you will Ever see that person… that will be awesome! I pray that you can find your purpose.. Living for your purpose makes life so worth while.. peace..
Once again I have to say I know how you have felt about not wanting to live anymore. But, with God He can make our lives more worthwhile than we ever imagined, all we have to do is trust that He is bigger than our pain, etc. Your description of heaven was beautiful. Hope God showers you especially with His love and grace this week. Love ya! Debra
Wow. You have such touching updates. Even though I hardly know anything about your aweful situation, you just make me want to cry. I admire you for your strength! Kelly
You do have a purpose Beth! NEVER GIVE UP searching for it! It’s worth it!
How beautiful…I can’t wait to hear those words!…And no separations…wow…I’m dreading a few more goodbyes that are coming up for me real soon…=( Thanks for sharing that…=)
And sadly, the quote you posted is quite true…
Keep pressing on, friend!! Love you, Thellie
ok im crying……………….sigh* …..i love you girl when are you comming in im dieing here seriously!!!
please come,
kaye
well dear.. those are some thoughts for you
but i think i can kinda understand (that’s what we all say:) but i mean.. reciently it’s been pretty discouraging.. and i didn’t really want to live another 60 years like this! ahhh!! get me out- take me home!!! but.. one thing i know for sure.. God is faithful, good, and true.. and that’s all i have to fall back on at the end of the day.. and- that has to b enough
so.. i’m not sure i’m actaully ganna b able to visit you.. i’m in this little pickle called money issues.. so .. i guess we’ll see how it plays out.. maybe someday- hopefully .. yes.. someday- it’s just a matter of when.. probably a long time from now tho.. sigh.. and so is life..
well on that possitive note
how are you? how’s transitioning home? and all that jazz?
YES! I love that.
It struck me powerfully 2 weeks ago, that Heaven is my homeland. Sometimes this earth can seem familiar and friendly…but then the cold and lonely moments shake me out of settling, chase me back into my Savior’s arms…reminding me that Heaven is my home. The place of love. And yes, NO SEPARATION!
Seemed as though I was right at the foot of Heaven’s door that day…it was so real and beautiful in my soul…
makes me love and appreciate God all the more…
Am praying for you, Beth! And yes, God does have a plan and purpose for your life. Most definitely. Pray for it, find it, and live for Him-passionately. Like you are now!!!
Keep on keeping on, for Christ…
and thanks for being such a friend!
love,
Bethany
@sisters_R_us - Thanks Kelly!!=)
Wow that is very encouraging!=)
@nvrenufcoffee - Hope those goodbyes aren’t too hard…that God will give you strength…He WILL…=)
And yes. That quote is VERY true…that’s why i posted it.;)
Love you…
me.
@hottie62293 - Hey girl..don’t cry…OR die!! I’ve been talking with Ryan and he says that if we go, we’ll get out there some weekend after the 20th…not sure how it’ll all work out but yeah. He said the gas is very expensive, and he’s still making payments on his car so he’s gotta kinda watch it and all that…=) Pray!
@camillezimm - you’re not gonna visit me? That’s just WRONG…hope you get the money-issues worked out soon…=)
I’m doing good!=) God is good…and you’re right, that’s enough.=)
Love you…
me.
@calledN2life - Thank YOU for being such a friend.=)
Thanks for the prayers…they mean a lot…I’m gonna write you a message sometime soon…got visitors here rightnow, but maybe tomorrow…I loved your last one, by the way!!=)
I love you.
me.
Bethy, you make me cry….Just Hang in there, I know God has a plan and purpose for your life….we love you and are praying for you! Every trial and pain we go thro in this life will be worth it all….someday…when we get to heaven and see just one glimse of Jesus and the Beauty FAR beyond anything we can ever imagine… that He has prepared for us. And to hear Him say, “Welcome Home Child, You have made it, Enter in!!” Makes me want to go right now! He loves you, Beth, and is holding you in the palm of His hand!
@Joy_in_my_heart_71 - Thanks Sara…the things you said about beauty is awesome…I want that.=) And yes. He is holding me in the palm of his hand…it’s a good place to be.=)
Love you…
~Beth
Hey Beth, haven’t talked to you in awhile. Beautiful post. I love hearing about what’s going on in your heart. Did I tell you we sort of officially moved to NC? We’re working on a repo house. But we live closer now.
that is a very weird but thought provoking post. if you didn’t have a profile pic. i’d thing you were probably an old person or an ugly , unpopular teenager…you don’t often see people that are so committed to & in love with God that they actually desire heaven! kudos to you. & goodbye 4 now=]
@Xxgirlz_got_grillzxX - That’s awesome…well, for me, anyway. I know it was probably hard to move…was it? You gotta write me and let me know how you’re doing…it HAS been a while!!…too long, I think.
So since you’re closer now…does that mean you’ll come visit me sometime? Hope so.=)
Love ya,
me.
@asteinmannpartygirl - Got a chuckle out of your comment…you sound very interesting and slightly opinionated lol!! My kind of person…by the way. But I’ve never been told that I sound old/ugly teenager before lol.=) Glad you think that’s a good thing ha ha…=)
Thanks!
Beth
@maripositas313 - heh! anytime.
That Quote Cuts to the Heart… But sadly, It is very true… I am Praying for You…
@WutsABoy2Do - Thanks Bobby!!=)